My Greatest fears

It has taken me a very long indecisive number of years to finally put pen to paper and make this a reality. I was scared I may not be able to come up with these long and well-composed articles that I read on blogs and various social platforms. Well, here is my first!

My life has been a Cocktail of different events and circumstances, a lot of which I have no power over. I had one of the worst diseases that a man could possibly have and was healed miraculously (who says there is no God?), I had witnessed the burial of my own Father who died at a young age but I nevertheless resumed my life and pursued my dreams with doubled aggression. All these and many more had happened and a bit of fear followed despite my aggressive goal pursuits.

My three greatest fears are; the fear of poverty, the fear of not fulfilling purpose and the fear of not making heaven.

The fear of Poverty came to be as a result of a time in my life between the ages 12 and 13 when in my then family we had no food supplies in the home for months at a stretch. We would sit around hoping for at least a decent Garri (Cassava flakes) meal from morning till evening (and I am not kidding!) while feeling feverish as a result of acute hunger.

This was one of the darkest moments of my life and I never want to experience it again neither do I want anyone else to go through it as well, hence the fear.

The fear of not fulfilling purpose is a fear that keeps me in check as I do my sprint away from poverty. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in God and I know He provides, but I also know that when you pray, you back it up with actions (work). However, in the heat of work (a.k.a Career pursuit), one could neglect one’s purpose in the process! I really want to have a state burial when I return to my maker, with the whole world represented at my funeral.

The fear of not making heaven is the greatest of them all because overcoming the first two fears and missing heaven is equated to a wasted existence. The life of a heaven-minded, purposeful and hardworking individual is plagued with lots of unimaginable sin traps on a daily basis so much that one would wonder if heaven is really attainable by mere mortals like us! However, I will not give up the pursuit. God’s grace is good enough and will come to my rescue.

NOTE:

Fear can do two things to you; it either keeps you at one spot or keeps you away from one spot. i.e. It either makes you or breaks you.

What are your greatest fears? Share with me and others.